VeryFine

8/8/2023-4:35pm

So today I decided to go and do something that I had been wanting to do for 2-3 months. Something that I felt that needed to be done. That had to be done. It was something that I had dread for that period of time. It dealt with The Drop from Amazon. It dealt with Shelby and Daezhia. So I had to pull myself away from my T-shirt design that I had been neglecting to complete to go and do this. It was about 4:30am when I left. I went to the spot that I knew the person might likely be at. I get there, backup and park. It wasn’t long before she showed up. Shelby. So I waited for her to get out and waited. So I decide to swing my car over to where she’s at. I pull up beside her expecting her to give me shit of some sort. I had this type of thought for quite some time. A what if. I was shocked by her reaction or lack of. We talked for nearly an hour. With some people I have a problem doing this. I run out of stuff to say within 5 minutes. Well she goes to get, realizes how bad she parked her car, repositions it and gets back out. I get out, I tell I want a hug from her; which she does and then it happened!…….

I told her I forgive her for what she did back in March. I felt that it was overdue but also because I told God that I would not get physical or violent with her or Daezhia. And I meant it. I felt that I needed to forgive her so that everybody could heal from this moment in time that didn’t sit well with me; especially. It’s best to forgive someone, doesn’t matter how big or small the issue was, forgive them. I made the mention that I might try to get back into Amazon, knowing that it may not work. But I cannot keep getting mad over the issue that was brought forth back in March. I cannot put blame on one person when it was more then 1 person that was the cause of this. It would not be right. I meant that forgiveness to her. It might have been hard on her but at least she did get it from me within (I feel) a decent timeframe. It was not rushed.