VeryFine

7/18/2023-1:21am

This is a good question. When you have someone who decides that they’re going to fuck up your life by fucking with your life because they got mad at you because you felt (which was true) that they weren’t doing what they volunteered to you what they said they were going to do, so you vent out your frustration of this reluctance/hesitation, of their reluctance/hesitation, pertaining to this situation and they get all fucking pissed off at you, and decide that they’re going to ruin your life and maybe others by having someone else go to HR to report you when it took place outside of that company and on a day that you weren’t working and with them and not this other person. That this 1st person THEN decides that they’re going to stalk you on your blog by blowing it up with multiple hits every fucking day, which causes you to get paranoid because you think that its law enforcement looking at your blog again like they did back in 2016, this person then continues to view your blog even AFTER you quit posting to it, even when you had TOLD this person that they were NOT welcomed to the blog and that they were NEVER welcomed to it in the first place! AND they continue to stalk your blog even after you made all 123 pieces PRIVATE to which NO ONE could look at it! They even continue this stalking behavior a month and a half later!

Then you create a new blog! A little over a month later, they find you! They unblock you on Instagram just to see if you had listed it and they follow that link! They re-block you after they got that info and start to follow your new blog. This blog! So you go off on them; verbally and they still keep coming back!

So after getting fired from Amazon because of this one person if not 2, I have not had any luck in getting a job. Came close with Walmart until they wanted to discriminate against in a new way. Everybody else has been-I applied and they forgot or threw it out. So because of all of this, I’ve been having to deal with a repeat of 2009. The year that my Depression began, because of shit like this.

No job. No money. All subscriptions are being canceled or pause. Negative $100 plus dollars in the hole with the bank. Now behind on two car payments. Car insurance has lapsed. 4 credit card companies are calling. Yet I’m suppose to continue going forward like there’s nothing wrong. Like everything’s all Sunshine and sweet roses. Fine and Dandy. When it’s not.

this shit is so mentally draining and I’m tired of this shit. i don’t have respect for women anymore. they are no longer viewed by me as being equal. they will now be seen as being beneath me. they are not important to me. they cannot be trusted nor believed anymore. i will kill shelby as well as daezhia for what they’ve done to me. this type of thinking that women do and do quite frequently is going to stop. it has to stop simple as that.

It took me over 5 hours to write this piece because of how mentally and physically draining it was to think about it, to talk about it still. I had to take a shower to try and help. Went back to bed.

Companies discriminate against me once they see that background report and they think that I’m stalking someone at their company, so they disregard me.

I don’t date because that person finds out, they might think the same thing.

Amazon gave me a chance at achieving normalcy. To have regularity that I hadn’t had since 2007. And now that’s gone. And so will those two bitches too. They will not see Christmas this year.

sto:7:18am